It has been a rough couple of days, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I wasted away the most beautiful weekend of the year sleeping in bed and icing my aching jaws, growing ever more despondent at the state of things (did you know that even ICE CREAM requires some chewing? I know it now).
I’m coming out the other end, but I wasn’t feeling that great today. I had a headache and felt really foggy-headed, even though I’m off the major painkillers.
So it’s no surprise that tonight my yoga teacher walked into class and looked right at me and asked “are you tired tonight?” I mean, we expect our yoga teachers to be more in tune with our body language than the average bear. But I also had another person who hardly knows me – one of our caterers at work – ask me if I was feeling okay today. Concerned look on his face and all.
I didn’t realize that I was wearing my heart on my sleeve.
Then again, the gorgeous (gorgeous!) spring weather seems to have made people around here extremely open and honest. I had the following conversation with my anesthesiologist on Friday (this is post nitrous oxide, pre sedation, so I’m awake but feeling quite goofy)
Anesthesiologist: How do you feel?
Jamie: I feel great. I wish I could be on this stuff all the time. I wish I could go to work on this stuff.
A: Where do you work?
J: (I tell her)
A: Do you like it?
J: It’s fine.
A: But you don’t love it?
J: No, but I don’t hate it. So that counts for something right? Lots of people hate their jobs.
A: Right, but you should try to find something you love.
J: I’m working on it. I teach yoga!
A: Now that’s a cool job! I want to try yoga sometime.
J: You should! It’s the best.
And that’s about when the doctor came in and said “It’s time to take a little nap!” Maybe it’s just me, but that seems like a pretty deep conversation to have with your anesthesiologist.
But the best of the bracingly honest conversations I’ve had lately was tonight, when I stopped at the convenience store before class. After I paid, the guy told me to have a great day. I politely said “you too”. He looked right at me and said “I already am!”